Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Earning the right to be a mother-The reason I'm putting off having children until I'm healthy.

Last night, an episode of The Biggest Loser really got to me, one of the women on the show talked about her food addiction and how her little girl was 70 pounds overweight. I cried when I saw the pain in her face, the palpable guilt was visible in her stature she stood like the weight of the world was on her shoulders and for good reason. It's one thing to be unhealthy it's something completely different to allow your children to continue the cycle but they will if you don't change something and I would know. I come from a generations long line of women who struggle with their weight, almost every single family member I have is a diabetic, myself included.

My family didn't set out to be unhealthy, they actually have tried for years to turn the corner and many of them have on an individual level and the journey isn't quite over yet for many, like my mother who is the best mom in the world and she  has always struggled with her weight. She didn't actually have time to go on a diet before having me, I came as a total surprise! The doctors didn't even believe her when she knew was pregnant, they kept telling her she just had gas! (She still tells me I'm full of hot air)

 I know that is she could plan it out, no surprises this time she would have done everything in her power to make sure we was healthy and ready for me, this I have no doubt of. It's her amazing example of a loving, nurturing and fiercely protective maternal figure that helped me through all the amazingly hard times with my weight. I have always struggled with my weight, there is not a time in my life when I have been at a healthy BMI for my height, I don't actually know what it's like to be healthy, it's a foreign concept to me.

Skinny was for other people not me, every time I would try to lose weight I would fail, the failure made me feel bad the only thing that made me feel good was food, I gained more weight. This viciousness has perpetuated itself on my family for too long. So I made a decision last night; I will not be a mother before I get to a healthy weight and have established a history of exercise and eating right for a least a year before getting pregnant.

I always told myself that I would not have children before I could afford them, soon I will have reached the financial wonderland of professionalism and homeownership in a few years. I always believed buying a home was the financial signal that it was okay to have children, however what about your body's signal? I thought long and hard about it, there was no way I would pass on my bad habits to my son or daughter, I couldn't live with myself if something happened to them because I couldn't make a commitment to myself to get healthy.

Because I've had such an amazing mother, who set the bar particularly high, I want to be the best one possible as well. I'm already in love with my children and they aren't even coming yet! Walking on the treadmill has a new meaning for me now, every step is one step closer to starting my new family, with new habits, new futures and a bright outlook, I can't wait until I start running toward them.
-CGINTW

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Fall is here and Fashion is in full Swing! Film Noir looks, oxblood and preppy oh my!

Project D London Barbican Skater Dress
Fall is here again! But wait don't break out your boring turtlenecks just yet not until you look at my all time favorite dresses and pieces from this season. Simplybe.com a London outfitter has amazing pieces and often great deals like this Project D London dress is so versatile you can wear to both the office and your three dates afterward ;). The other body hugging dress is on trend with it's contrast shoulder detailing and metallic coloring.




    Who says you can't rock this seasons geometric, film noir and preppy trends? The bow blouse below will help you pull of collegiate chic, add a varsity jacket and you're now ahead of the curve, bell curve that is! I love the way the Barbican Skater dress (above) is shown with blue pumps, perfect for a night out, pair with nude or neutral flats or heels for the office.

 The geo shirt down below is one of my faves, because it is done so well. Too often plus size women are told "stay away from patterns" but this one is done right, keep your help slick and simple and add some classy earring and you're good to go.



Project D London Barbican Skater Dress
  $91.00

 Project D London Belgravia Dress

Project D London Belgravia Dress $87 



 Igigi always has beautiful dresses available but the "Ambrosia" below really caught my attention maybe not for everyday wear but a modern twist on the "film noir" look.
Ambrosia Dress in Royal Ambrosia Plus Size Dress in Royal $175 Igigi.com





The two shirts featured also on Simplybe.com are perfect for the office or brunch with ladies, yes all of these pieces are a bit pricey but think of how many things you already own that go with them! Want to change up the look of a little black dress? Add a statement necklace or even a brooch, brooches they're not just for your grandma anymore!
 

 

Black/white Geo Print BlouseBlack/white Geo Print Blouse
$55.00




Monochrome Bow Collar Tie Blouse - Additional View3

Monochrome Bow Collar Tie Blouse $65 Simplybe.com


          
 

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Want to go out on a date but it's casual dining and it's cold out? Don't fret your pretty little head, Old Navy has a cardi for that! The adorable sparkling sweater is still pricing but you'll be able to use it on date night, a comfy new years jacket, and if you're short like me it's a great way for your friends not to lose you in a crowd! 
 
          Women's Plus Sequined Boyfriend Cardis $52.94 Oldnavy.com