Skip to main content

Bestowing beauty on yourself

For many years I was told by television, print and other media that I was not beautiful because I did not fit their clothes, their look, their ideals of what beauty was. This is me taking back beauty a small smidgen at a time in poetic fashion:

Raw Beauty by Stefanie Gomez

The bar was real wood, raw it was the first thing she noticed when she walked in
her large frame lumbered into the ill fitting chair that she knew would cut off her circulation.
"A cosmo  please." she asked of the much younger prettier bartender who obliged with a genuine smile. She felt so out of place her as she usually did, nothing in this establishment matched her,
the clientele were all sleek and beautiful in a wholesome Northwest sort of way.
Her structured shirt-waisted navy dress clashed with all the sandals and jeans. She was outside looking in on the bohemian revolution, she could never be apart of them,  contending with the tyranny of "newness" seemed useless.

She retreated into the fictional time when a woman could be allowed sensuality without others demanding superficial improvements. A time when raw wood no matter how dented, scratched or used up it was could be useful and
in its own usefulness bestow upon itself its own unique and wondrous beauty,
a raw unrelenting passion that through its strength and endurance would encapsulate itself forever
 in a favorable light no matter what the years or gods rained down upon it.
 It would be forever beautiful not because of any opinion or justification from its patrons
but its own stalwart existence.

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Winter is coming...

So my fiance and I are obsessed with Game of Thrones. We love Danny, hate Jofferey and yes I read the f@uking books! So winter is here, I've been snowed in for three days here in Wilsonville,OR with one of the largest snow storms to hit the area since 1996. So in order to keep from getting cabin fever I've decided to share with you lovlies the pieces which I'm currently coveting from Igigi and a new source I found called Navbi (much more expensive, think Nordstroms for plus sizes).  I also wanted to make you aware (as if you didn't know) how awesome some modcloth stuff is. I just purchased the travel day skirt on sale for 14.99, we do love a bargain.

Things drool worthy from Igigi:


Zola Dress $118 I imagine mysels as Reese witherspoon in this dress, cute, quirky and loveable.
garnet dress in black, perfect for office or cocktails. I imagine the model as a Bond girl, with a thigh holster and .22 tucked inside her dress.
Cadence Dress $118.
I think I could take over the wor…

Shout out to local businesses!- Please support local and homegrown plus size friendly business in your area! This is the Portland edition

If you're in Portland Metro area do not miss out on going to two shops one in Northwest called Fat Fancy which has killer vintage and new styles for the plus size retro princesses out there and in the Southeast there is Savvy Plus run by the beautiful and awesome Gaya (I'm not sure if I spelled that right! Someone please correct me if I'm wrong).

Fat Fancy- great for both men and women and the funky little shop is right in the heart of downtown Portland so it's a great destination if you're on the Northwest side of town and wanna do some shopping. My favorite piece I got there is the amazing graphic crop top I use over camis. The girls who work here are amazing at making you feel comfortable and helping you find exactly what you're looking for.

Savvy-Plus has been and will continue to be my first destination when shopping for casual and career wear. I went in yesterday and was so excited about all the new things, the inventory is constantly changing so go in at…

Overcoming the "I'm too fat for this."

I have not been posting lately due to many reasons, I'm back in school, I'm working full time again and I've been stuck in a depressive cycle in which I overeat, condemn myself for being a glutton tell myself I'll never amount to anything and then overeat again to make myself feel better. Wow, that sound really crazy when I say it like that. But so many women I know have told me the go through exactly the same thing. We lie awake at night thinking about all the terrible things we did to our bodies that day. I had McDonalds and Taco Bell all in the same day; word to the wise don't do this.

Tomorrow I have to go out networking, normally this is a chance for me to increase our connections or strengthen ones we already have and hopefully broker us more deals in the process but really it's about relationship building and frankly I've been pretty terrible at it lately. Why has my performance decreased so drastically? Because I don't think I deserve to be ther…