Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Getting over the "hump"-My Blahness personified

Recently I've had trouble getting over that "hump" in life, in my career, in my writing and fitness pretty much in every sphere of my life (even my love life ) just getting to that next stage, that level of financial fitness, physical fitness and intimacy has been really hard actually I feel like I'm standing still like my life has come to a stop. Even though it's progressed far from where it was four months ago it still seems like I'm running on a life treadmill barely staying on point long enough just to avoid utter chaos.

We have set up plans, goals and are working toward them but I'm not sure if the sense of urgency is coming from the fact that my 28th birthday is coming up, closer to 30th and I'm still not anywhere I want to be. I haven't finished my book, school, bought a house or lost weight. My life to do list seems to be a permanent series of unchecked boxes, action items taunting me with their in-completion and I know there is no one on earth who can remedy this but me.

I find it puzzling that I would never leave a work task undone at the end of the day but I have no problem letting my gym sit there unused day after day. I cook meals for everyone else in my household but rarely will take the time to make myself breakfast for the hour commute to my office, I'm helping to build up a small business that isn't mine and I barely can get the motivation to write. What happened to that 21 year old girl who was going to set the world on fire, make a difference and be an award winning writer? How did the go getter I was turn into the Doctor Who marathon watcher who eats potato chips for dinner?

Worse yet I don't know how to break the cycle, how do you shake off Blahness? Do you do it slowly or just rip it off like a Band-Aid? I've gotten so mired in my inertia of nothingness that I'm going to have to do something drastic to shake things up. What do you do to help you shake off the drudgery? I'd love to hear any ideas.
-CGINTW (Maybe Chubby Girl Soon to Rejoin The World) is more accurate

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