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Long distance relationships, our first reader question and how I still believe in Americans

So Mr. Big and I don't exactly live next door to each other, he commutes 2 hours back and forth just to see me for a day or two once a week. With all the technology at our fingertips, both of us agree there is no substitute for real, face time. I never thought anyone could care about me enough, love me enough or think I was special enough to make such a trip once, let alone over and over again just to be with lil ole me. You would think the distance would diminish the flames of desire after a time but no such thing has happened thus far, in fact it merely becomes an inferno when we do get to see each other. LDRs (long distance relationships) are not the ideal for anyone and work for very few, but with us it just seems to click. We seamlessly transition from cuddling to debating national foreign policy.Yes our civil liberties and the accurate accounting of our history is currently in danger from crazy factions who are merely puppets in a much grander scheme that has everything to d…

According to me you don't matter any more

This is not for you, the one who hurt me, betrayed me, beat down my soul, no this is for me, this is for the anger, the pain, the sorrow you've caused, it is the requiem of all of those things for after this, I will leave them and never think of them or you again. I've spent so much time in darkness, so much time wasted believing you, all the horrible things you told me, all the time wishing I could make you better, hoping some how we would get through it. I did nothing to deserve the torture you meted out, and loved you, trusted you even though you gave me no cause or reason to do either.

After the bruises healed, and the doctors told me my injuries were "relatively minor" I took me and my broken ribs home, I looked around at the wreckage that had become my life with you. I decided that it had been enough, that I had given enough to you. I left everything, wanted nothing from you and like always that is exactly what I received, you never once even tried to find out …

The Return of Mr. Big

Love is a terrifying ordeal, and someone very wise once told me we do things for two reasons, fear and love. Love defies all laws of the universe, it is faster than light, it outlives both its source and its destination and leaves a lasting impression for future observers, something no other force in our known universe can do. We open our selves up to rejection, to devastation and we must ask ourselves why? It is not in our nature to be single, we group together out of necessity and throughout the ages we've developed very intricate mating rituals in order to determine the best mate. We all look for different things, but I think the one thing so many of us overlook, is that sometimes things just work. You don't know why, it may even drive you crazy not to know why but sometimes, and this is one of those times, things just are. Being in love is a constant state of vulnerability, it requires you to trust another human being with your heart, to know that they won't reject the…